Updated: Nov 7, 2019
Whether it’s the one you dated & thought it’d last or that special bond with someone who just got you & loved you through it all?
I have been avoiding going to her grave because then it means it’s real.
The tears that come suddenly.
The fits of laughter I have when I think about how silly she was.
I wasn’t ready to say good-bye.
I wanted you around for the big things...and the everyday things too.
I decided to share those thoughts with you & what I heard was: I got to say goodbye just the way I wanted to with you. Dry your eyes, Katie O, I’ll see you again.
There’s not a day that goes by where I don’t think about how my week will revolve around seeing you or the habit of calling you.
That’s the funny thing about love is that it becomes a habit.
How we show up for you, how we care about you before ourselves, sometimes, & how you become a part of our daily lives.
It doesn’t mean we stop loving you.
It means loving you taught me how to love myself.